I sit here, watching her cry,
Wondering if theres anything compared to her pain.
I know that there is nothing I can do,
She wont ever again be the same.
How could you break her heart,
Knowing that shell suffer beyond belief?

You were her water and air,
Now shes suffocating with no relief.
You left her in a state of misery,
With no one there to wipe her tears.
She struggles to regain her dignity,
While everyone just points and jeers.
And all you do is sit there,
Watching her make the same mistakes.

She doesnt care about anything anymore,
Shes let her life come to and end and break.
There is nothing anyone can do about it,
Shes broken beyond repair.
Theres nothing left to her anymore,
No other disappointment can compare.

Even if you feel remorse for your mistake,
You cant take back what youve already done.
She doesnt hate who you really are,
She hates who youve become.
She feels like shes felt this pain
Too many times before.
But this time it feels more real,
It feels like its from the core.

Her heart is aching,
For someone to stitch it back together.
For someone who will hold it there,
And keep it there forever.

But she knows that shes been broken too many times,
And not been fixed enough.
She knows everyone can see through her mask,
No matter how hard she tries to be tough.
So as you go on with your life,
Remember all the pain youve caused.
Remember all the hearts youve torn apart,
One that is forever lost.

ii really lovedd y0u.♥
but you only lovedd yourelf.

ii may smile infront of you
but you dont noe how much my heart has achedd since we screwedd up
ii made a mistake
but what you did was intentional
we apologized.
but can we ever go back....

Damn ii really screw up sometimes. (most of the times)
why is anusha so complacent
sometime ii feel like killing anusha.
screwwww.

ii screwedd bio test
ii feel like shit.
tears were like flowing to my eyes when ii saw my marks.
ii felt like slapping myslef.
SEE ANUSHA THIS IS WHAT YOU GET FOR BEING COMPLACENT
&like the whole class did so well
ii bet no one failedd.

ii dont think ii can go tell my mum my marks.
she still dosent noe my 2nd physics test.
ii really dunnoe wat to do. ii have disappointed her so many times
jux when she toldd me she was proud that ii did well lst yr
ii had to go and screw up my tests.

oh ya thankyouss lisa and jedii
for trying to cheer me up.
ii was like crying, then lisa came in and started being crappy
&soon ii started laffing.
but its like no matter how much ii smile or laff on the outside.

it achess like hell in side.
my eyes are burning.
my mouth keeps on puckering.

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happy married life
priya akka.
actually she got married like weeks ago in india
todae was the dinner
in temple.
the nan was nice, so was the kesari.

ii didnt bring my specs so everything was like a blur.
ii thot all the akkas look very pwetty.
ii wore this white chudi with chudi pants (like skinny jeans)
yay.
ii kept on getting scolded by my dad at home
cos ii was leaving my makeup all over the place.
then he was like commenting on my hair.
he was like eh dont pin ur fringe.
1day ago....
daddi: aiyoo pin up ur fringe luh. cannot see ur face. scaryy.
cannot stand it
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now that all the excitement is over
ii got one dae to sleep. WATCH VALLAVAN (SIMBUUUU) & get my act together.
ITS TIME TO WAKE UP ANUSHA.
everyone is like so clever so frky.
ppl who were like no where near me lst yr
are like topping the class now
WTF
wakeup. its not too late.
push them back to where they belong
DOWN THERE.
ii dont deserve this not after how hard ii worked last year.
its not fair that you have tuition for everything but ii dont
its not fair
obvioulsy you are able to produce results.
you frk. ii hate you for being able to like pay your way to the top.

ii will get back.
&you will suffer.
ii have woken up. ii may have fallen alot.
but
now its your turnn.

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btw ii am not targetting anyone luh
well actually ii am
but jux pretend that ii am not
ii jux need to get the steam out of my headd
ii am like frkin pissed at life
leave me .
dont comment that ii am eom
cos thats how ii wanna be
so if youall not happy then leave.
do you see me holding your hand and refusing to let u leave.

if ii dont vent my anger here
will you let me vent my anger on you.
damn luh
let me be ksx.
jux leave me .



she got pissed off at 2303

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