In my hand
I hold my knife
With a flick of my wrist
I can end my life

I press it against my throat
The metal is very cold
If I die right now
I won't die old

I think about my memories
The good times and the bad
Hardly any good times
Which makes me sad

I slide the knife across my neck
And all I see is red
The blood dripping down
I fall to the ground, dead

bahss sorry for the sad poem
again
but ii really like the third para.

um ya so this is gonna be my last post.
too many tears.
too many hurt faces.
too many broken hearts.
its too much to handle.
so its over.

ya ii am sorry for all those people ii have hurt through my post
iim sorry.

ii noe my apology is not gonna help so
fine go ahead and shoot me.

ya ii maybe back
someday
but that depends on wether ii can learn to control myself.
iim too rash .
you say its better to rite wats on my mind then bottle it up.
but there are somethings better left unsaid.

iim sorry.
ii screw up alot.

Labels: the end.

One Mistake, That's All It Takes To Ruin a Friendship
Look into those eyes that done you so wrong
You wanted revenge for oh so long
She was that darling that stole his kiss
She was that darling that only wanted bliss
He was yours but no longer anymore
She didn't mean no harm, it was love in her core
You have that blade in your mind and in soulIt burned like flames heated by cole
Scratch up your face with those bloody fingernails
And drop remaining blood onto some mail
Send her that message of love and hate,
That you're afraid that you're going to lose your mate
Everyone around that watched this play from the start,
They only wish you would think twice, after all you're smart
Still even though she was your best friend and love
You automatically forgot that she is an innocent dove
Trying to bring her down with hateful words
She still stands up tall wanting to fly free like a bird
Her soul is so strong even though she has tears in her eyes
You have no regret and you never asked why
You think she has fallen
After all you can't see if she has fallen
She is so far away that you could never see
Baby girl, was letting a guy ruin your friendship worth it?
Now all you want to do is spitinto that poor lost friend's eyes.
She never meant any harm to youI guess you'll never realize what she ever meant to you
One mistake she made,
A big one indeed
She would have changed what she did if anyone gave
Still with all the sorrys she bleed out to you,
No matter how many time she silt her wrist to show you
All she wanted to do was show you how much she still cared
How after all this she is still scared
No matter what she does she'll never get you again
After all you lost a best friendShe made a mistake and now you still have him
That's worth enough to make a new kind of sin

blahs emo poem is back.
ksx this is how ii feel now
someone ii thot was my friend jux stabbed me like repeatedly.

hello you want to tok behind my back
FINE
but hello do you not realise ii am within hearing distance.
its damn obvious that you are tokin about me ++ you tok like dmn frkin loud
GAWDD get a life luh.

do you spend like the wholde day pissd off at me
bcos you think you are so dmn frkin grt.
that ii write all my posts abt you.
HELLO.
much better things to do
SO
STOP BEING SO EFFING PARANOID

as for wat u were saying.
you think she is your bf you are protecting her.
hello how long do you noe her. 5 mths.
ii noe her for 2 yrs ++ now

ii noe u think ii am a bitch
but ii dont diss my frnds
&ii dont have to.

btw ii noe u are like prob rding this & going
walao u tok so much dont want to approach me n tok face to face/
well ii was tokin to u tat dae abt my posts.
u didnt ask me anything abt it
u jumped to a conclusion
uu went to tok to her. dmn luh u think u are so grt protecting her.

ksx so yy am iii so pssd
bcos its like u a re tryin to break up our friendship
fine u mb closer to her
but still.
ask ok dont jump to conclusion.

anywayss you hurt me two times too many.
its over .
iim not gonna fight with u or wat crap
jux stay away frm me nn iii can live my life happily.

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MANU4 other team1
yay ronaldo scored TWICE
hah.

still dare tell me hes not a gd player.
:) pfa footballer of the year.
40 goals so far this season.
+the cver pg of my file &heartt

wat nani did todae was like effing stupidd
but still the neil shud have got booked for falling for a light butt.
hello DRAMA MUCH.

but still it was a gd match.
there was no threat for them 2nd half onwards

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ii miss huimin & val
bahss

oh ya thanks jeddi for toking to me tat dae
rmb u dont owe her anything
if its not coming frm the heartt u shudnt do it
ksx:)

anyway yah my posts have been quite frky to some of you
sorry ksx.
ii need to get the steam outt.

maybe someday ii should go find khadija.
ii need help.
but jedii and lisa are quite gd too.
that dae ii toked to some ppl too . didnt hlp.
so thks jedii for fridae.
ii feel more confident and better now
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maybe one day ii will come with a happy poem and happy post
till that day comes plss bare with me:)

Labels: recovering

ii was happy wen ii came online


now after reading a certain someones blog my mood totally


rawrr


so pissed off larhx





like hello wats up with you liverpool fans (xcept nice mag)


why do yall hate man u soo much


like hello shudnt youall be hating chelsea or someone


why manuu


they say jealousy may turn into hate...





screw you larh s...


you think u and ur liverpool so damn frkin great isit


like pls luh


'if man u can beat barca'


its not impossible k. like wats ur prob luh. u support liverpool rite


then save ur dissing for the team that plays against pool


not man u.





gawdd


u better stay away frm me at school


or you are like seriously gonna get it from me luh.





btw this certain loser only like started watching football wen.


two mths ago.


HELLO


she prob dosent even noe wats offside.


so if you are only supporting for like the sake of some crap. or to fit in


can you like pls effing shaddup.





aniwayy for all the pool supporters out there


ii jux watched the match.


chelsea as per usual played dirrty and won.


they didnt deserve it.


there shdnt have been a penalty. or he shud have given liverpool a penalty for another tackle.


but.


aniway ii thot liverpool should have won.





this coming from a man u supporter.


& you liverpool supporters can come up to me and say


oh todae man u playing barca ii hope barca win


screw you luh.


HELLO


ii understand if liverpool vs manu then you sae ii hope liverpool win


but...


do you hear me saying ii hope chelsea beat liverpool


NO RITE


then why do you have to come up to me and piss me off.





i may say watever now.


but its getting really irritating


and the nxt person who does this to me is gonna get hell


&ii can frkin predict who tat idiot is gonna be.





ps (the liverpool fans thing is like only applying to this loser called s and some otherss)





oh ya heres a pic of wat ii wore yset:)




pluss my bangless:)

hah its was fun luh to see soo many ppl. & ii thot priya akka looked superr pretty.
xcept for the part wen someone came up to me and told me my turn would be soon
& ii was like huh????
hello ii am like 15. then she went well u all grow up fast.
painfull smilee.

no emo peom todae.
ii too lazy to find.
bahss.

Labels: boo s.